When A Lightworker Is Tired
When I was 4 years old, my mother and her then-husband took me and my half-siblings to see a movie. This movie touched me so profoundly that it has remained a beloved favorite for over 45 years.
That movie was Jesus Christ Superstar.
I vividly remembering saying to my mother, much to her horror, how sexy Jesus was. Well, the actor who was portraying him. Then Caiaphas' fine behind came on screen, and I'm pretty sure I lost my shit. SO sexy!
I was four.
And ahead of my time.
But I digress... back to the purpose of this writing.
Of all the movies I have watched through the years, this one still moves me.
One song in particular brings to mind the feelings that a Lightworker feels at some point on their journey.
Feelings of being tired of their mission.
Feelings of wanting it to be over.
An intense longing to return Home.
I, too, have felt these intense emotions. And quite often, I have holed myself up... in hopes that the cup would be given to someone else.
The cup that can be incredibly heavy at times.
The cup I happily took from "another".
The cup of taking on the pain of others, so they no longer have to feel it.
The "Holy Grail" that many seek, yet do not understand what it is, or the purpose that comes with being in possession of it.
The cup of staying in one's light.
Right now, I am listening to this movie's soundtrack for the umpteenth time, and Gethsemane is playing. This song speaks of this tiredness.
In this song, Jesus wants to be done with what was started (the agreement); done with what he was put here to do.
However, through this listening, I find solace, for the first time since hearing it.
Little did I know as that 4-year old starseed that I would find myself where I am today. That I would be writing about such things in hopes that someone would find solace in the words that come through me. Including myself.
If you too are a Lightworker feeling tired and alone... know this:
You are here for a reason.
You were given your mission because you are strong.
The feelings you are experiencing are of the physical plane, and you are so much more than your physical form and the manifestations you choose to experience.
You are a beautiful Divine Being living in density because you said, "YES!" to the biggest mission of all.
To be the shoulder for the weary; an ear for the unheard, and a Light for the lost.
And with that, may you once again find peace with your journey.
(To purchase the song below, click here. To rent or purchase the movie, click here.)
(To purchase this song, click here. To rent or purchase the movie, click here.)
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That movie was Jesus Christ Superstar.
I vividly remembering saying to my mother, much to her horror, how sexy Jesus was. Well, the actor who was portraying him. Then Caiaphas' fine behind came on screen, and I'm pretty sure I lost my shit. SO sexy!
I was four.
And ahead of my time.
But I digress... back to the purpose of this writing.
Of all the movies I have watched through the years, this one still moves me.
One song in particular brings to mind the feelings that a Lightworker feels at some point on their journey.
Feelings of being tired of their mission.
Feelings of wanting it to be over.
An intense longing to return Home.
I, too, have felt these intense emotions. And quite often, I have holed myself up... in hopes that the cup would be given to someone else.
The cup that can be incredibly heavy at times.
The cup I happily took from "another".
The cup of taking on the pain of others, so they no longer have to feel it.
The "Holy Grail" that many seek, yet do not understand what it is, or the purpose that comes with being in possession of it.
The cup of staying in one's light.
Right now, I am listening to this movie's soundtrack for the umpteenth time, and Gethsemane is playing. This song speaks of this tiredness.
In this song, Jesus wants to be done with what was started (the agreement); done with what he was put here to do.
However, through this listening, I find solace, for the first time since hearing it.
Little did I know as that 4-year old starseed that I would find myself where I am today. That I would be writing about such things in hopes that someone would find solace in the words that come through me. Including myself.
If you too are a Lightworker feeling tired and alone... know this:
You are here for a reason.
You were given your mission because you are strong.
The feelings you are experiencing are of the physical plane, and you are so much more than your physical form and the manifestations you choose to experience.
You are a beautiful Divine Being living in density because you said, "YES!" to the biggest mission of all.
To be the shoulder for the weary; an ear for the unheard, and a Light for the lost.
And with that, may you once again find peace with your journey.
(To purchase the song below, click here. To rent or purchase the movie, click here.)
Gethsemane lyrics
I only want to say if there is a way
Take this cup away from me
For I don't want to taste its poison
Feel it burn me, I have changed
I'm not as sure as when we started
Then I was inspired, now I'm sad and tired
Listen, surely I've exceeded expectations
Tried for three years, seems like thirty
Could you ask as much from any other man?
But if I die
See the saga through and do the things you ask of me
Let them hate me, hit me, hurt me, nail me to their tree
I'd wanna know, I'd wanna know my God
I'd wanna know, I'd wanna know my God
Wanna see, I'd wanna see my God
Wanna see, I'd wanna see my God
Why I should die?
Would I be more noticed than I was ever before?
Would the things I've said and done matter any more?
I'd have to know, I'd have to know my Lord
Have to know, I'd have to know my Lord
Have to see, I'd have to see my Lord
Have to see, I'd have to see my Lord
If I die what will be my reward?
If I die what will be my reward?
Have to know, I'd have to know my Lord
Have to know, have to know my Lord
Why should I die?
Why should I die?
Can you show me now that I would not be killed in vain?
Show me just a little of your omnipresent brain
Show me there's a reason for your wanting me to die
You're far too keen on where and how and not so hot on why
Alright I'll die
Just, just watch me die
See how, see how I die
See how I die
Then I was inspired, now I'm sad and tired
After all I've tried for three years
Seems like thirty
Why then am I scared to finish what I started?
What you started, I didn't start it
God, Thy will is hard but You hold every card
I will drink Your cup of poison
Nail me to Your cross and break me
Bleed me, beat me, kill me, take me now
Before I change my mind
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